Untold Words

यूँ तो आज भी मां की गोद में लेट जाता हूं। आज भी रो कर अपनी बात मानवता हूं। पर वो हर चीज़ का ना मिलना बड़े होने का एहसास करा गया। यूँ तो आज भी नटखट होकर गलती करता हूं। और फिर पापा की डांट से भी डरता हूँ। लेकिन वो पापा का कुछ न कहना बड़े होने का एहसास करा गया। यूँ तो आज भी ठोकर लग कर गिर जाता हूं। आज भी चोट खा कर छुप जाता हूं। पर वो मां को ना बताना बड़े होने का एहसास करा गया। यूँ तो आज भी वो बुरे लोग मुझे बुरे ही लगते है। आज भी उनके काम गलत लगते है। "पर वो मैं ही तो नही..." बड़े होने का एहसास करा गया। यूँ तो आज भी मन करता है कि बस पूरा दिन खेलता रहू। बस अपनी छोटी सी दुनिया में खुश रहू। पर वो भविष्य का सपना बड़े होने का एहसास करा गया। यूँ तो आज भी माँ गोद में सुला लेती है। और पापा डाँट भी देते है। पर लोगो का वो सबक.... बड़े होने का एहसास करा गया। -तुषार चौहान

He was called names, and the deed is so vile. But this was not expected, He just gave a cryptic smile. Some called it his patience,some said he's weak. Some thought he's wise, and some articulate that he cannot speak. But what if all of them are wrong, and he's the lyric of some unsung song. Don't underestimate the silence he hold, We're the planes on the earth, he might be wold. What if he had been through worse, and yet you dare. He survived that and tried to start this new life, but why do we care? We always have someone to rely and someone to blame. Why don't you try to act cool while you're on a burning flame. "You cannot break the thing you broke, and left broken, not anymore"                                                                                 ...

Why to change? Why to fight? Stop doing the deeds that aren't right. Just to feel something you've been trying since she left you alone in the darkest night. Why to change? Why to Die? If you can then be the brightest part of sky. Don't do anything which is based on a lie, because i know you man, you're not that guy. Why to change? Why to cry?  Just because you can't suffer a goodbye. Don't blame the luck and stop to try. you're not a bird but you can fly. Why to change? Why to hide? Why to grieve for the person who haven't died.

Is there any currency to buy , the lost love that said goodbye. Killing me every moment from inside, I don't want to think just from my mind, I don't want to be like those guys. I even miss a normal smile, at least I used to do that once in a while, I know you don't care, there's nothing in common that we share, but loving you deeply was worthwhile. Things that I learned for you, became the reasons to loose, the brightest light that shined, inside the deepest part of  my mind. I've lost so much here, please help me FIND!!

You saw her today and WOW, she was looking awesome, happy, and yeah!! Such a beauty, She responded smiling and you judged her "Oh man! She's so easy!!" How can you just judge? Maybe she was just into grudge. Maybe she didn't responded to your filthy looks, Maybe that wasn't enough, or Maybe it was too much!! She was dying inside slowly-slowly, and blame is on you, yes! its on you, because you ruined her wholly. She just asked you for some time, She want to think or decide? okay!whatever it is, I don't think it's a crime. You don't care because you don't know the pain, you haven't suffered that blood rain. They have been through it  again and again, and still they can't abstain. Ever did that with your sister? okay leave, just talk to her about it. hey hey? what happened now? ohh!! am I talking shit? I don't know what's happening to this world, My mother told me its beautiful out there, or maybe she ...

Doing all crazy stuff and those stupid fights, talking about you and then suddenly being quiet. I never confessed anything anything, but you know how much I loved you. Right? Being kid and dreaming was far better, at least everything I used to think was bright. And hey you! I am not  changed, because unlike you I never Lied. Am I going out of topic I started? Okay leave it, I just have to write. Even I used to sleep well long back, now I just have to survive at night. Oh! Do you think that I suffered? Ummm! okay, maybe a slight. Actually suffering was a major part, else what do you think I'm doing here midnight?

No one saw the person inside me, All you have seen is virtual area. Yes, I am smiling around, But this isn't Euphoria. Something you know, so do I. Without you I won't Die. Because I just have to survive, without saying this hardest Good-bye. Believe me,You need not to tell lies. Because it's just you and me tonight. They say,"You're mad", and they still do, but I know what I'm going through. Haven't you counted the years? count with me.. One.. Two..! Oh! But you don't have to worry about it, because I LOVE YOU! Whatever you say, you're the one I choose, My sun, My stars and My moon. The thread I'm holding is really thin. And the game I'm playing isn't a sin Because every minute I loose, and every second I win.