Untold Words

Is there any currency to buy , the lost love that said goodbye. Killing me every moment from inside, I don't want to think just from my mind, I don't want to be like those guys. I even miss a normal smile, at least I used to do that once in a while, I know you don't care, there's nothing in common that we share, but loving you deeply was worthwhile. Things that I learned for you, became the reasons to loose, the brightest light that shined, inside the deepest part of  my mind. I've lost so much here, please help me FIND!!

You saw her today and WOW, she was looking awesome, happy, and yeah!! Such a beauty, She responded smiling and you judged her "Oh man! She's so easy!!" How can you just judge? Maybe she was just into grudge. Maybe she didn't responded to your filthy looks, Maybe that wasn't enough, or Maybe it was too much!! She was dying inside slowly-slowly, and blame is on you, yes! its on you, because you ruined her wholly. She just asked you for some time, She want to think or decide? okay!whatever it is, I don't think it's a crime. You don't care because you don't know the pain, you haven't suffered that blood rain. They have been through it  again and again, and still they can't abstain. Ever did that with your sister? okay leave, just talk to her about it. hey hey? what happened now? ohh!! am I talking shit? I don't know what's happening to this world, My mother told me its beautiful out there, or maybe she ...

Doing all crazy stuff and those stupid fights, talking about you and then suddenly being quiet. I never confessed anything anything, but you know how much I loved you. Right? Being kid and dreaming was far better, at least everything I used to think was bright. And hey you! I am not  changed, because unlike you I never Lied. Am I going out of topic I started? Okay leave it, I just have to write. Even I used to sleep well long back, now I just have to survive at night. Oh! Do you think that I suffered? Ummm! okay, maybe a slight. Actually suffering was a major part, else what do you think I'm doing here midnight?

No one saw the person inside me, All you have seen is virtual area. Yes, I am smiling around, But this isn't Euphoria. Something you know, so do I. Without you I won't Die. Because I just have to survive, without saying this hardest Good-bye. Believe me,You need not to tell lies. Because it's just you and me tonight. They say,"You're mad", and they still do, but I know what I'm going through. Haven't you counted the years? count with me.. One.. Two..! Oh! But you don't have to worry about it, because I LOVE YOU! Whatever you say, you're the one I choose, My sun, My stars and My moon. The thread I'm holding is really thin. And the game I'm playing isn't a sin Because every minute I loose, and every second I win.

There will be time we will not be the same, feeling alone, on our own, burning in each other's flame. Running into different people, so lost. With new intention and old thoughts. Trying to get some old stuff, and working hard to join the scattered dots. Then I remember, the things we share. Hey, how can you forget them, Is this fair? If YES, then please leave, else don't you dare. Here we are, falling again, but it's not the way all same. Maybe here finishes our part, and have to say Goodbye with heavy heart. We just shouted to claim, and LIFE won this game.  Here we are, ripped apart, feeling this immense pain. Everything changes and people dies, there are few  memories , that REMAINS.

LIFE, I never found its proper meaning till date, and I hope I never do. It's complicated. It's all fussy, u can never understand the things happening right now but surely will understand someday. I'm not an old man talking about his life experiences but whatever I have seen in all these few years scare the shit out of me. its just the fear of future that makes me a bit tensed. Problems are there, they exist every time but why can't we just solve it and move on? And this the biggest " PROBLEM " that I have faced and may be you are facing it right now. Well! As it is said every wound take time to heal but I know all wounds can't be healed. All we can do is to be habitual with them. Now being habitual is also a problem! So it's clear that  there is no existence of life without problems. and problems lead to  depression . I have seen many things and all I know are few words by  Dwayne Johnson.  I have heard many speech but this i...

Few days have passed and I think that I'm over it. It just took sometime to know that together we never fit. Now I see the world, with new thoughts and feelings. It's better to explore new stuff, rather than staring at the ceiling. Without you it seems weird, and looks a little fade. But its better to be without you, rather than being betrayed. Living without you isn't impossible, and it was hard to admit. But here I'm living a happy life, just because I didn't QUIT . Now hoping for a new desire, I'm excited and barely sit. Being with you was just a dream, and I wake up after a hit.